365 days of Yoga??? Have I lost it once and for all?
Possibly but here is the back story.
First let me introduce myself. A middle aged woman going on 20 learning to cope with long term affects of being BiPolar and the subsequent depression that accompanies it. If you are interested in the BP side of things you will find more here.
Where 365 days of Yoga comes in is my previous inability to commit long term.
I have avoided commitment like the plague. The reason, now clear due to my managing my BP is the belief that I would fail. And I would because the Depression would be so deep I struggled to get out of bed for weeks at a time so signing up for 365 days of anything was pointless.
So can I do it? Yes, no issue.
I truly do have a handle on the BP and the only thing that stands between me and commitment is old fear. The past.
Challenging myself to 365 days of Yoga is a statement. A statement that in fact I can.
And I shall.
Over 2 years ago I said I can to being drug free. 5 months ago I said I can to managing my BP, and today I say I can to moving forward, being in the present and finally, finally finding a life of value and fulfillment for myself.
So come along. It shall be interesting.I can hardly wait to hear my own excuses as to why not, none of which I plan to accept.
What will I find in 365 days of Yoga. Certainly a fitter body, more toned and flexible. But for me its the what else that drives me to do this. The first 365 day commitment in a lifetime.
I expect the woman in the mirror today will be hard to recognise.
Day 1 is Jan 1 2010.
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